October 2005
21 October 2005
So how is everyone then?...Me?..Well besides wanting some new lungs, and the odd wince of pain here and there...Im fine. Life really is short, and Im enjoying each day - and so should we all..who knows what is around the corner.
I spent a few days in Cambridge - which was lovely...and I had the biggest smile on my face..why? I went into a jacuzzi - about the first time in about 6 months. It may not seem like a big deal, but from working in a Health Club before I fell ill, and doing jacuzzi/steam/sauna two/three times a week- and then not being able to do it at all...is a big deal for me. I rested my oxygen on a chair by the jacuzzi, and slowly submerged....ahh...total bliss and heaven...grinning away. May seem silly, but, I almost felt like crying. Then contimplating how to swim again...would need Jon to walk along the pool side carrying my oxygen..hmm...not sure if ready for that yet.
I still can't believe all the messages from the TV appearance - wow - saving lives for the future - and thanks to everyone who registered as a donor. Ive had some great emails too - that still give me hope - and people believing I will get a transplant in time - I hope so too.
I had my flu jab done today - the first time ever that Ive had one...and so far..no side effects...sniffles etc..hope it stays that way. I actually have to go back to the Harefield Hospital again in November to meet a cardiac surgeon - who may carry out the transplant - part of the Governent Regulations now. I guess it will be good to meet the man who may be cutting/playing about with my body and stitching me up. Does anyone remember the game, "Operation"...with a man and you had to remove parts from his body without touching the sides..if you did..it made a noise?.. I guess I will need to imagine thats me - and the surgeon is playing a game with me - but will not fail, as he is an expert at it!!...Surreal - eh?
So another day....the weekend approaching....and Im smiling away....and humming in my mind.."Don't worry..be happy"....xx
07 October 2005
Hi there everyone. I have finally caught up with rest now - after my live TV piece on This Morning daytime show. It was a great experience, and Phil/Fern were lovely!
I was so nervous about 2days prior, and finding it hard to sleep - but my nerves seemed to go as soon as I sat on the couch opposite the presenters. I am touched by all the messages on my guestbook - probably about 100, and all with whom have signed up to become donors. I will respond to every one of them - need a few days to do so - will keep me quiet again..he he!
Life for me recently - seems to have been very busy with friends and spending more time with Jon. I actually struggled going outside with my walking/breathing one day last week - as I have been so social...roll on my new lungs - to prevent this next time!!
Recently, I was scared - as near to my period starting again soon, I experienced more pains than other times. I had a horrible feeling/pain/sensation on the lower part of my lung..almost as if it was moving. I sat with Jon - both worried - and discussing whether we should call an ambulance or drive me to A&E. I was so desparate and praying that it would pass - and that my lung would hold out - and not collapse. After what seemed ages...I lay down and rested in bed...hoping if I woke up - I wouldnt be struggling to breathe.......phew....Im still here....and lung still up.....nightmare over.
Otherwise, I guess all is ok...I am wondering when my next media blitz will be - it is all helping towards the future of others - I just hope, I get to have a future too.
Speak soon, and thanks for all the continual support. xx |
