January 2006
29/01/2006
Justine is back in Hospital again and
once again cannot write any fresh entries at this
time. Please look at Latest News Section for updated information.
27/01/2006
Just short n sweet..in pain...but wanted to say "hello" to
everyone..will write more when I'm up to it. Just glad to be home even
though I still have a drain inside me. I have had my own little
war going on.....and who will win the battle???? ..Answer is ME!!...And
I just want my transplant now..Speak soon. XX
23/01/2006
Justine
is now in Hospital and cannot write any fresh entries at this
time. Please look at Latest News Section for updated information
17/01/2006
Well
now into week two..and the aliens have finally left me...yippy!! Hold
on..dont get too excited...they have been replaced by a full size
Boxing Ring with beefy fighters...banging away at me...and fighting a
horrible infection that one of them has. I'm wanting the good
fighter to win over the infected fighter..so that I can get better
again!!
So another week, new anti - biotics....and here we go all over again.
I think I am on the mend..not sure though. Last week, I had such
a bad constant pain in my lung...thought the pressure from all the
coughing may collapse it...was scared. But...someone really is looking
over me right now....and holding out until I get my replacement
lungs....until a good deal arrives on Ebay!! ...he he.
Also, I will share a horrible dream I had with everyone..hey
after all..it's good to talk. I dreamt that my lung was
collapsing whilst I was drifting off to sleep at the weekend..and that
I never woke up. I was so alarmed by this..I bolted up ....it could
have been from a high voltage electric shock...heavens...I bolted up in
a shot. I guess this is my worst fear..having that happen...and not
knowing..then my time up......So scary! I was unable to sleep after..so
went downstairs..made a cuppa of hot chocolate..put the gas fire
on....and watched TV for 2 hours or so.
Jon kept reassuring me..its just a dream..I know...but one hell of a
dream - eh?! However, that was then..and now I feel ok. I'm still
smiling and laughing...and offering free tickets to my Boxing Match
next week...if the fight is still going on inside me. So....I'd better
get well this week...or I may not have a stadium big enough for all the
freebies wanted to come along..gulp.. he he
I saw an old buddie yesterday from almost 10 years ago..who saw me on
"This Morning" and now doing a short journalist course..and wanting to
do an article about me. We had a few laughs....and re - living memories
- from a long long time ago..was a nice afternoon. Although I was
coughing and spluttering everywhere..oops...but I made it in the
end..then had a snooze after.
Anti - biotics..really wipe you out...I am just so eager to get back to
the gym..been over 1month now, and I really miss it!
Hmm..I think I have babbled on enough for now...so roll on next
week..cause I will be better!!!!!!!!
XXX
10/01/2006
Well
I tell you, I have never coughed sooooooo much than yesterday - oh my. I definitely was invaded by
aliens - as I coughed a few up..and this is what they said to me:-
Justine...we have
been told by our master to
Make you cough til
you drop, and see
Whether your organs
can handle a day at the sea.
We are happy to tell
you - we have suprising news from E.T.
" You have bewildered me with my findings in your chest....
Mars bar half eaten with scruppled up wrapper, dental floss tied in a
knot...
An autobiography from George Best....
And heavens above a whole load of snot...
A mobile phone case, 2 Parker pens,
Last year's left over Turkey - thankyou that was yummy...
Part of a rainbow and a few hens,
A Cheeky Girls CD, a few purple and green threads, selection of
buttons...
Heavens help you - and that was the end! "
You see Justine, now
you know why you have an infection
And the crucial
importance of your alien abduction.
Your organs passed
their test at the sea,
And now we will leave
you - and let you be.
The space medicine is
over
Get some rest and
celebrate after,
We are now going to
help some bloke who lives over in Dover.X
(Hope you all enjoyed that. XX)
09/01/2006 - Part 2
Bar humbug, I'm ill. Going to bed.
Anti -biotics are soooooo strong, I
think E.T. the sequel is happening, as E.T has come to take me to space
to hopefully make me better with their space medicines. When the
anti-b's ease off...I'm sure I will not remember my alien abduction.
Where I find humour in my not feeling well - I just don't know. Going
to lie down again. X
09/01/2006 - Part 1
I
have been to the good old doctors today, and have got - my first chest
infection in a very long time. So..I'm on the biggest tablets the
Doctors could find...bring it on! And for a longer period of time than
normal...as I'm special with my illness (aww). So..in 10 days I will
bouncing back from wall to wall....Hmm...maybe I'm being prepared
taking big tablets now - for whats to follow post transplant - who
knows. X
08/01/2006
I
want to wish Kebbie Brown farewell and peace in her new world. Kebbie
and I started to communicate through emails, after she saw me on "This
Morning TV" - and she was feeling down with life. Kebbie had a
transplant two and a half years ago and sadly her lungs went into
rejection, to which Kebbie was waiting for another one. Kebbie passed
away last week. In the short time I knew Kebbie - I thought what a
lovely girl and she picked up emotionally again to a happier state.
I am also happy to have helped her communicate with a long lost
buddy in Japan through my website. Best wishes to all Kebbie's family
and friends. XX
07/01/2006
New
Year - new start...new hopes, and same old dreams though (nevermind).
Can you believe that it is all over, and before you know it we will all
be celebrating that festive season all over again!
Well
you know how I was hoping that I would get a call on New Year's
Eve?...Well, the home line rang....I was with Jon, and he hadnt
realised the phone was ringing. I went into a mini shock....."thats the
phone...thats the phone"....and looked somewhere far away - thinking
this was my 1st call. Hmmmm, it was a friend ringing..oh bar humbug!
However, I did get an email from an old friend who I
used to live with (and who saw me on "This Morning" TV...and contacted
me to say that her brother was also waiting for a transplant. He got a
call on New Year's Eve, and went through that night. I was happy for
him and his family, but cried as my time still hasnt come yet.
I haven't been too well last couple days, bit of a
chesty cough - and not wise in my condition. I was actually thinking
recently how lucky I've been to stay cold/infection free from the
change in the weather...urmm...me and my big mouth speaking too soon.
I'm sure it will pass, may have to go doctors and get it looked into.
Otherwise, all else is grand with me. Yet another media
exposure on Channel 5 news, and I'm glad to hear people
have registered as donors and will spread the word about Lam -
because of my exposure the other day. I tell you, there will be
lives saved because of all you signing up. And I am sure my time will
come this year (I continue to hope). A friend of mine said that his
sister is into crystals, and that the crystals say my transplant will
happen in April...so come on...lets wait and see (if so, it would have
been 1year waiting for some gold star league lungs).
Also, I have started to learn electric guitar...yer
yer.. you may all laugh....but when I'm good...I will be laughing and
hopefully singing loud with my premium lungs - and write my own song,
and have a hit record. You heard it here first. If I do not...I will
probably see if I can get a role in a Muppet Movie with Kermit
and Miss Piggy...see if there are any vacancies with the muppet that
plays on the drums..oh whats his name?? (See my "Thankyou"
section about
this too.)
I also want to highlight, that along my journey I have
met and spoken to some great people through my campaign and other
interests. My guitar teacher, Marc, who has assisted me with a crash
course - what a genuine and grounded person. Marc will be famous one
day - I know - he is in a band, and aiming high. So thanks Marc for
telling me to cut off my nails, and laughing at me struggling to get my
fingers on the right chords/notes (its actually quite hard you know).
If I get to see Marc again, I would have developed "webb like" duck
feet on my hands..no joke -as to reach the notes you need stretchy and
bendy fingers. I
now have found
another passion to keep my mind pre-occupied. Also, I have become
friends with other people either waiting for transplants (like me) and
post transplant people, sufferers of other illnesses, and regular (none
ill) people.
Julie - yes you, in Guernsey!! To six months (or more) of weekly emails
- thankyou, its been great, and lets hope we get our lungs
soon. Julie has been fab, and deserves a mention - and Julie is
also raising Donor Awareness in Guernsey. There are many other people
who have been a rally of support/laughs/and fun..too many many to quote
all names - but, you know who you are....and I appreciate every
correspondent that I have/had with you. It keeps me smiling.
I also hope that this year, I am able to do some other
TV work - such as bit parts, presenting..with or without the oxygen (if
I have had my transplant by then)..I really don't mind now..guess its
me now. So, does anyone know anyone who can help make this dream come
true for me this year please? If so, please contact me - thankyou!
Phew..it's almost 2 am...and I really should get some
shut eye..so nite nite.
xxx
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